Last Day of 2012

It's the last day of year 2012, and we didn't die yay!! Thank god for letting me continuing my life. So, last year i made a new year resolution for year 2012 and it goes like this.

this year, i wish to...
#1  Think less
#2  Get a job that pays a good amount (in the process weee!)
#3  Be confident!
#4  Be who I want to be not others want me to be
#5  Travel
#6  Find myself (i'm alwiz confused)
#7  Watching every episode of How I Met Your Mother
#8  Accept my insecurities
#9  Be a better person to the people around me (be less hot-tempered)
#10 Become less shy
#11 Redecorate my room
#12 Appreciate the little things
#13 Get back together with my true love
#14 Get an Iphone Get a Note 2 already
#15 Get a little bit taller (imma shorty just so you know)
#16 Watch the sunrise at the beach
#17 Learn a Nicki Minaj song
#18 Buy a pair of gorgeous heels
#19 Learn how to play the guitar
#20 Read more
#21 Find someone who will treat me right, get rid of those who treat me wrong
#22 Be happy
#23 Road Trip with friends
#24 Start saving money
#25 Go on camping with friends
#26 Learn another language (Korean,maybe?)
#27 Be strong!
#28 Get my first Nike shoes
#29 Adopt sugar glider
#30 Learn how to sing properly
#31 Spend more time with family
#32 Play in the rain
#33 Go on a trip with WOPPY

I've only done half of the resolutions i made last year. hmm... maybe i was too greedy? but i'm still happy that half of it achieved! especially those things that i get for myself unexpectedly. heheh... maybe i should start working on 2013 RESOLUTION and make sure the items are more achievable.

how have you guys been doing lately? ready to party tonight to embrace 2013 with joy?? haha.. i wish you all the best for the new year and most important, BE HAPPY!

xoxo

You will be missed... Ma Ma

i woke up around 11am today... the day was a bit cloudy.
i was a bit busy sending emails to my lecturer, and i received a call from my brother.
it was 2.16 pm, and i was thinking why my brother call me at that time.
brother said dad called him just now. it was about my ma-ma (babysitter), she passed away...
few days ago mom did told me about her illness. both her kidneys were already failed to function and her legs were swelling. so when i go back to Kuantan during sem break she'll bring me to meet ma-ma again.
i thought she could wait a little bit longer until i go back. now that ma-ma left, i feel a bit sad, as i haven't seen her for the last time. dad said she'll be buried in Kelantan, so i hope i could go and pay respect when i visit Kelantan.

my ma-ma took care of me since i was very little, two years old i guess. we had a lot of fun and one of the strongest memory i had with her was this funny scene. she asked me and my younger brother to drink and do the gulp sound. she demonstrated it to us. i also remember my brother used to shit in his pants, but she didn't scold us, instead she talked to us nicely. she's a really nice woman, i don't remember any time that she got angry actually... such a sweet lady.

This is my ma-ma and the happy me :D

after ma-ma stop taking care of us and went back to Kelantan, i haven't seen her for a long long time. i couldn't get used to going kindergarten and i cried every morning. she just made me feel so safe, and fun staying home. my mom and ma-ma's daughters said i was the apple of her eyes as she didn't have any granddaughter yet that time. she sayang me so much! all these pictures when i was young were taken from her album that she kept it with her all the time.

mom told me that ma-ma was a bit sick during this year's CNY, and all of us went to visit her at ma-ma's daughter house. she was so happy and keep laughing non stop. and she brought out all the old pictures and joke about them (we used to be very naughty, and my bro was really fat) haha...

Ma-ma's little granddaughter has grown up!

this doll was made specially for me by ma-ma. i'm a blissful kid ain't i? the most precious gift from a person who doesn't have any bloodline with me. :)

ma-ma, i hope you're living in peace in heaven. and i will really miss you. thanks for taking care of me like my own grandmother :') I Love You!

To Mr. Inspiration

i just had something to say to you, but i don't know how to begin with, so i wrote it down instead...

in my life, there're some people who can really inspired me and influence me, and one of them is YOU... this is rare. well, not to say that i liked you before this so i think you inspired me, but it's because of your character itself that makes me inspired. i had no reason to tell you why i'm inspired by you, but i know some of the reasons i couldn't tell because it's about a guy who hurt me a lot in my life.

i was a girl who desperately wanting to be loved, and i was afraid to be lonely, still a lil bit like that till now though...i would do anything just to keep my partner happy, and i'll listened to him so that he could just stay by my side. but the more i did that, the more i felt like i was not being appreciated... and there came all the resentful feelings towards him, and i'll still go back to him somehow. feeling helpless... all because i'm afraid to be lonely...so i just listened to my EX.

many once told me this, "Hui Chien, just let him go, don't bother him anymore, don't contact him anymore" etc. it's easy to be said, but it's really hard to be done, just so you know... and i'm really scared coz i've been that way for few years! however, few months ago, i met you... things started to change... to a good side. (if it sounds to cliche i'm so sorry heehee)

i could somehow feel that your words are very motivating. the way you spoke is different, maybe you don't sound like you're blaming like others did. you've heard about all the problems i used to had with the EX, and what you really said that awakened me was the most annoying words i've ever heard in my life. you said something about what i did is not worth the value i had for myself something like that. i was really really angry at you, but i started to think back, maybe it's true... maybe i wasn't respecting myself all this while...

i used to be a happy girl, don't give a fuck on whatever people did, don't care about what people might think and i just love hanging out with my friends so much. and i've changed completely throughout that two years, that two dysfunctional years, because of a man. kinda disappointed with myself, for making myself fall into this state, but what's past is not going to be the future. still recovering from that memory.

i don't know whether you are reading this, but i really wanna thank you for waking me up. thank you for your influence. thank you for making me realize how high value i need to put for myself. don't know what will happen in the future but for now i'm gonna take control of myself. still feel a bit embarrassed though that you forced me to admit that i like you, i hated you for that. should never be so stupid to admit anything to you anymore, lesson learned, haha. i just hope we could hang out like we used to again, relaxing friendship time. just don't relate yourself to my ex again, i don't like you to remind me of him, and you guys are not the same person after all. :) miss you, inspirational friend.

pls don't forget about the scuba diving plan next year! i've been waiting for it for YEARS!!! weee!

Six Degrees of Separation maybe?

i've been moody these few days. no, these few weeks should be, since before my birthday. and i don't really know why. felt like i have something in my heart indescribable, something i wish to get, or solve, or find, I JUST DON'T KNOW. it's really hard to know the answer, like some sort of finding my soul bleerhhh don't know... or maybe i don't have enough chocolates lately? it's annoying to be in this state. can't move forward, can't move backward too... bet some people had experienced this feeling before, or maybe just me?

well, i came across this song today. it's from The Script. love this band because of the style they sing. well this song is a bit special. i don't usually check out a person/band's new song right after they released a news about their new songs, but this time, i just did. so i checked out the song, it is named "Six Degrees of Separation"  and it goes like the lyric below

You've read the books, 
You've watched the shows, 
What's the best way no one knows, yeah, 
Meditate, get hypnotized. 
Anything to take from your mind. 
But it won't go 

You're doing all these things out of desperation, 
Ohhh woah, 
You're going through six degrees of separation. 

You hit the drink, you take a toll 
Watch the past go up in smoke. 
Fake a smile, yeah, lie and say that, 
I'm better now than ever, and your life's okay 
Well it's not. No 
You're doing all these things out of desperation, 
Ohhh woah, 
You're going through six degrees of separation. 

First, you think the worst is a broken heart 
What's gonna kill you is the second part 
And the third, is when your world splits down the middle 
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself 
Fifth, you see them out with someone else 
And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have messed up a little. 

(No, no, there ain't no help, it's every man for himself) 

You tell your friends, yeah, strangers too, 
Anyone'll throw an arm around you, yeah 
Tarot cards 
Gems and stones, 
Believing all that shit is gonna heal your soul. 
We'll it's not, no 

You're only doing things out of desperation, 
Ohhh woah, 
You're goin' through six degrees of separation. 

First, you think the worst is a broken heart 
What's gonna kill you is the second part 
And the third, Is when your world splits down the middle 
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself 
Fifth, you see them out with someone else 
And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have messed up a little. 

No there's no starting over, 
Without finding closure, 
You'd take them back, 
No hesitation, 
That's when you know you've reached the sixth degree of separation 

No there's no starting over, 
Without finding closure, 
You'd take them back, 
No hesitation, 
That's when you know you've reached the sixth Degree of separation 

First, you think the worst is a broken heart 
What's gonna kill you is the second part 
And the third, Is when your world splits down the middle 
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself 
Fifth, you see them out with someone else 
And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have messed up a little.

i don't know why, i feel like the lyrics are talking to me. maybe i do feel sad and pain and emotional all the time because i'm going through the six degree of separation? maybe i'm really doing things out of desperation? that's why i'm demanding something else from other people all the time? maybe it's a sign that i should not be desperate in many things in my life? especially in all my relationships? i saw this in Twitter yesterday, "If you aren't happy being single you will never be happy in a relationship. Get you own life and love it first, then share it." probably desperation is the root of all my problems. maybe i should just let go of certain things, bit by bit...

Better Together

i was bored, so i saw many people tweeting about this girl named Neelofa... don't really know who is she so i checked it on google. i went to her website, and i heard this song! it's a really nice song from Jack Johnson, the singer for Good People... haa this just made my day sweeter, as i already felt so happy that my favorite badminton player Dato' Lee Chong Wei is married! he looked so handsome and his wife Wong Mew Choo too, prettyyyyyyy! wish i am at their wedding now! HAPPY MARRIAGE LCW and WMC! 

祝你们百年好合，白头谐老！

let's listen to this song until we sleep tonight! :)

"Better Together"
There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart, 
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmmm, It's always better when we're together
Yeah we'll look at the stars and we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight,
But I know that theyll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things
for tomorrow night you see
that theyll be gone too,
too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
With only two,
Just me and you,
Not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree, now,

Yeah It's always better when we're together
Mmmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

mmmmmmm

I believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
There is no, no song I could sing
and there is no combination of words I could say
but I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together

Turning 21...

it's been raining every day lately, every evening around 4pm, with thunder and lightnings...
i don't like lightnings and thunders, they made me scared. i don't like it to rain every day either, it makes the weather cool but sticky, and my mood turns to be as gloomy as the dark sky...

i'm turning 21 in two days... wow... i should feel happy, but for real, i don't feel so...
am i weird? i don't know...
21... a very important number. so in Chinese family, usually we'll receive a gold key pendant as a symbol of FREEDOM. so after you get the key, you should have the freedom and you can take control and make decision in your life. i'm not sure whether mom is going to give me gold key, but that doesn't matter, coz i don't really wear accessories... and i think i had enough freedom from her for now...
21... it's the beginning of adulthood. what i mean by that is that i'm no longer a teenager, i can start voting, if i conduct a crime i'll be put into jail, not rehab center... and all sorts of things will change like people will expect you to act like an adult, behave like an adult... oh ya not to forget about credit cards... salespersons start swarming towards you coz you're finally able to be one of their customer! and bills, responsibilities.... etc...

well, i don't know why i'm feeling moody. somehow, i feel like it's a changing point from what i used to be and what i want to be... i wanna be a better person after this of course! have been training for it already... i told my friend that my birthday is coming soon, so excited while talking about it but i just feel that something is missing, and i don't know what is it...

that day is a Thursday, people will be busy with classes, so am i... some of my friends (Fifi and Lily) already gave me my birthday presents as they have left to their hometown for good, i wanna thank them so much! the older i grow, the less i care about the presents actually, as long as you have the heart. but i'll still keep it :) oh yah, that's a Thursday, middle of the semester, when everyone is busy. haha what a good day! -,- i wish i could celebrate this special day with my family but they're not going to be here on that day... my old schoolmates WOPPY, none of them will be here too... and also AWEPIC... some are busy with work, some are too far away, and some even sulk like a kid until today... i would rather change all my presents with their presence, to see me blowing my candles, to watch me grow up...
......it just won't happen, i know... and i'm crying right now knowing that i couldn't get my biggest wish fulfilled. :'(

so dear god, if you can hear me... i just wish that day will be a happy day for me, even though those people can't be here with me on Thursday... it shouldn't be a sad day after all, it's my 21st birthday...

learned something new...

it's a Sunday, my friend Jan Fai could not work today, so he asked me to replace him.
i went to work at 10am today, as usual, unpack the bar counter and place all the Glenlivet whiskey on the bar counters for sampling and display (coz i'm a sales promoter for the brand)

not much thing to do there as the customers in Cold Storage Mont Kiara was quite little, so i brought my storybook Roald Dahl's The BFG to read. suddenly, a man came, and i didn't know he's the ambassador that came to help me to promote the whiskey... haha... things changed after that :)

people start coming to the counter coz of the special things he put in the glasses. we didn't really talk at first, he was looking at his iPad, i was reading my book. then we talked, and i get to found out that he owned a PR company, a restaurant, and he also invested in a wine company and he has a qualified licence for wines and spirit. i think he still has some other businesses but that's already more than i could think of...

he helped me differentiate what's PR, marketing, and advertising. we were talking about which job i wanna find after i graduate that time. interesting topics that we talked about, like LEGOLAND (one of his clients), James Bond and Heineken, and many things... i feel like i'm talking to an encyclopedia... so much of knowledge he has about everything, or maybe my knowledge and exposure to everything we talked were too little, i don't know... hahaha. he also introduced the most expensive bacon in the world which cause RM 36 per 100 gm.. and also the air dried pork cheek... serve it with 12 years Glenlivet Single Malt Whiskey, ahhhhhh heaven... it tastes sweet!

oh i'm so glad i met him today. how i wish i could meet this kind of inspirational, motivational, successful people in my life every week to keep me moving on and know my goals. i'm now inspired! :)

Just my recent feelings.

haven't been writing for so long, i miss writing so much...

i'm exhausted! had never been so busy like this before, as i work and study for 7 days a week now! 

Monday work, Tuesday classes, Wednesday class and work, Thursday class and scholarship duty, Friday work, Saturday work, Sunday work... 

oh ya, and also meetings in between those classes for the club, assignments, etc...

my life is all about eat, sleep, work, study, and meetings now... and occasionally meeting up some friends during lunch or dinner time... i feel tired. 

i have never been so busy for so many weeks in my life before. if i had this situation years ago, i think i would have end up burnout and gone into depression. now, i'm feeling so hyper everyday, and this is weird. it's like i am excited to finish my work but i just have not enough energy... this schedule has changes me a lot. i'm even anticipating to go to class nowadays, that's WOW, for me... i'm a lazy girl...i don't like to go to class, but this time it's different. and my mood, i feel like i don't even bother any things that will make me unhappy anymore. how to summarize this? STRESS makes me motivated? hahaha

is this normal? i don't know... but what i just wish to have now is a good sleep everyday and wake up with good skin. :) bye, i'm gonna start writing again when i'm free...


when things make you too busy, learn to set priorities. :)

Updated wishes. Come on you can do it!

updated wishes! 
it's August now, let's see what i've done.
#1  Think less  I DID IT!!
#2  Get a job that pays a good amount (in the process weee!)
#3  Be confident!
#4  Be who I want to be not others want me to be
#5  Travel
#6  Find myself (i'm alwiz confused)
#7  Watching every episode of How I Met Your Mother
#8  Accept my insecurities I DID IT!!
#9  Be a better person to the people around me (be less hot-tempered)
#10 Become less shy
#11 Redecorate my room DONE! AND I'M HAPPY WITH IT!
#12 Appreciate the little things
#13 Get back together with my true love  OUTDO myself
#14 Get an Iphone
#15 Get a little bit taller (imma shorty just so you know)
#16 Watch the sunrise at the beach
#17 Learn a Nicki Minaj song
#18 Buy a pair of gorgeous heels
#19 Learn how to play the guitar ukelele for now ;)
#20 Read more
#21 Find someone who will treat me right, get rid of those who treat me wrong
#22 Be happy
#23 Road Trip with friends
#24 Start saving money
#25 Go on camping with friends
#26 Learn another language (Korean,maybe?)
#27 Be strong!
#28 Get my first Nike shoes NIKE AIR! FROM JOHOR PREMIUM OUTLET 
#29 Adopt sugar glider I DON'T WANT IT ANYMORE.
#30 Learn how to sing properly
#31 Spend more time with family
#32 Play in the rain  DONE, AND IT MAKES ME SICK THE NEXT DAY :(
#33 Go on a trip with WOPPY

gonna change some of them coz i have different insight of different goals now. :)

How To Be So "High" Like Me?

okay first of all, when i talk to you guys happily and compliment you, i mean it.
i'm not drunk, maybe sometimes i am, so please don't ask me whether i am drunk anot when i say good words. APPRECIATE IT please... coz you'll never get those words anymore when i'm really in bad mood. hahaha

so, how to be so "high" and happy? (at least for some period), coz there's no such thing like forever happiness lah as you know.

1. don't take things too seriously. (lecturers, friends, family, roommates, whoever can make you angry, but you don't have to take things too seriously, coz they'll die eventually, sounds so bad, but it's true!)

2. don't angry for too long. (if it's not going to change things, make sure you don't angry for too long coz it will make you feel really sick, like i used to. no appetite, no mood, bla bla bla, you don't want that.)

3. watch SPORTS and be supportive! (this is a must, for me. where else can you shout like a mad person and be so aggressive except watching sports, especially live one! it feels so good cheering for your fav sportsmen or your fav team, trust me)

Hockey

Kaka from Football

Lee Chong Wei from Badminton

4. eat and shit. (eating good and nice food makes me feel good! and the even better feeling is when you pass out yesterday's food and accept new food again. wow, that's why chefs exist!)

5. cuddle in your blanket everyday. (like a teddy bear hugging you)

6. imagine you're in love. ( yah this sounds a bit crazy bit eventually you will really feel the love there, somewhere there hehehhe)

7. sleep well. (like a dead fish and wake up excitingly)

8. smile and laugh to whatever you think it's happy and funny. :)


9. don't watch too much of sad dramas. it will affect your emotion.

10. meet more people, more old friends, and do things you like. (like the duty i just went. it feels so good knowing i don't have to just study as a student)

ok i guess that's all. i hope this works for you too... :) (i'm sober)

Jason Mraz Concert 19 June 2012

few days ago, i just went to Jason Mraz' concert, and i felt sooooooo excited about it. it's because this is the first time i bought a ticket for myself to watch an internationally well known singer's concert!

at the reception

i had been so excited and i even went to Bangsar just to change the ticket earlier. but after that, i was lucky enough to get 2 VVIP tickets from my aunt so i sold off my free seating tickets to my friends. so proud to be so near to the stage. he's right there, just less than 10 meters in front of me :)

yay i got my VVIP tickets with me :D

i went there early, with my brother, Adeline, and her cousin. i bought his latest album for my youngest brother, coz he said he couldn't come to the concert as he's in Kuantan. so after the dinner by the road side, we all went in to the stadium (Stadium Merdeka).

not really many people came, probably because of low publicity. but because of that, everyone had a comfortable seat. at least the cheapest ticket won't have to sit too far from the stage now. it started with the opening song by Awi Rafael, a local singer-songwriter. and then Jason's turn was around 8.30pm. when he and his crews were preparing the stage, all fans were already shouting and screaming his name (including me hehehe). WOW!

so he started with the first song - Everything is Sound. it was lively. i saw many couples there, middle-age, and i was thinking how good is it if i also have a boyfriend to come with me that time. haha. and then, i'm not sure whether at the 2nd or 3rd song, he said something. and everyone start swarming to the front, more and more. so not many people is in their seats anymore. Jason started teaching us some moves, like dancing to the song! it's like a relaxation move, really interesting, and made me enjoy the show more!

Jason was asking all of us to dance with him

but suddenly, the guards came, and make us go back to our seats. it's really sad coz we were all there to enjoy the concert in front of the stage. after the guards left, a bunch of fans swarmed to the front again, followed by all of us. and it lasted till the end of show. shouting and dancing while he's singing is really really cool! i like the feeling. it's like you're at a mini lounge in an island you can do whatever you want. but what makes me funny was a pair of old couple, not really old, probably around 50 sitting there feeling bored. my goodness, everyone was like falling in love and they're giving the poker face =,=. hahaha. wasted the ticket la!

his crew

Jason was really good when he performed live, and i like it more during live than the album itself. more soulful, something i would like to describe as. feel like i'm in love with the moment, i really feel like crying that time coz i was so touched! overall i really enjoyed the concert and i'm so blessed to hear him singing live!!!! i hope he will be performing in Msia again next year!

I'm a Scorpio

friends have been telling me that i'm very into horoscopes. hahaha, yeah i really love to read things about horoscopes because i think i can find many information to determine a person's nature. i mean not like it's 100% correct but at least i know how to deal with them and understand why they're acting that way. 

so... i'm a Scorpio. 

usually people define the Scorpios as very determined, reserved, loyal, and secretive. Magnetic, elusive, sexy, bla bla bla, oh ya even good kisser things like that. hmm, i don't know whether it's true for everyone else but somehow i think i am what as described (at least most of it). or probably it's just common traits and whether you're a Scorpio you'll still have it. but it doesn't really matter.

with friends, i think it's good to know that there are friends who are also Scorpio. i feel close to them, like "oh we're from the same family" that sort of feeling. also, it's easier to get along with them, i don't know why... maybe because we share the same month of birthdays? i really feel happy knowing that people are also from the same month. like setting up our own kingdom of Scorpios, do not invade. hahaha... 

well, nothing much to say about this. just wanna share some of my thoughts about this because i really think this is interesting. 

so here's some other funny descriptions about  Scorpios.
and the picture is so weird and cute. hahaha.

have a nice day! :)  

Popo, I Miss You

last Sunday, i went to work but it was lunch time, so i went to buy a pizza in Jusco. there's an old lady who didn't really know how to speak in BM so she seek help from me. she wanted a hawaiian chicken and a tuna pizza. so i helped her until she paid the bill. i asked her, "are you buying these back home?" she said, yeah, i wanna buy them for my grandchildren, they love pizzas. she made me think of my popo.

my popo is not here anymore. probably she's at some beautiful country in the heaven now. she used to buy food for me too, then she will say, "when you know how to earn money, then you belanja me makan ok?" she always cooked nice food like Hainan kuih, bi pang gong, and all those dishes with pork, chicken, bla bla bla. owh yah, she can really cook nice Hainan chicken rice, erm, coz she's from Hainan Island?

i cried whenever i miss her. but i didn't drop a tear during her funeral, coz i personally think it's not good to weep everyday in front of her coffin. plus, i really felt angry that few days too because of some stupid aunties. don't wanna talk about it, they're just a bunch of double-faced snake.

i remember i treated her very badly when i was younger. in fact, i treat everyone badly. i hit everyone and i didn't listen, and i shouted to everyone that tried to command me. hated her so much that time, but it was quite fun playing all around and got beaten up sometimes. childhood times, who never get scoldings or some whips from the rattan they hid on the cupboard? hahaha. as i grow older, i still did that to her, and everyone. that's my rebellious period. no one can control me. of course, in my house, we don't show love like other families. she might feel that we don't really treat her like others do, but we do love her. she'll complain and compare us with other kids that she had but we don't really care. there's no need to show off to get your love.

then, i grew older again. i don't really fool her around anymore. instead, i love her cooking, and whenever i'm at her house, she'll buy breakfast for us, nasi minyak with kuah daging, i love it the most. she walked to the stall early in the morning to buy them. and in the evening, she'll ask me or my bro to go to the supermarket behind called Astaka to buy things. and we will use a small road as a shortcut. whenever she passed by the road, there's a lot of pak cik lepak there. she'll tell them that, "ni cucu saya" ;) she'll proudly say that. hahaha.

i once talked to her about boyfriend. and she said, find a European bf. i guess that's her dream because the Europeans were really rich in older times. that's the funniest thing that she had ever said to me. and, whenever i'm naughty, she'll still hug me and kiss me with her cold-wrinkled skin. i love her so much..

i hope you're doing fine, popo. i miss you.

Worst Weekend in April

this is the worst weekend i've ever had in April, i guess? sigh....

the whole week i've been listening to "some" friend complaining about family, boyfriends, and the things have been repeating again and again! as though i don't have other things to do or worry about, but i just listen laaa... what to do, i'm not a good liar, can't avoid not seeing "friend".

then some keep worrying about their studies, and i don't even know why they are worry about it. yeah presentation was over, and it had been so annoying knowing everything was not done yet at the last minute, but i don't know why i can't feel what they are worrying about. probably i'm in my depressive mood already.

then, an aunty that i know also complains about her child's boyfriend. and i all i can do is just listen. but that's alright. sometimes it's good to talk to older people.

and there's a friend who just wont stop calling. morning, evening, night, even before i sleep. omg, GET A LIFE! don't rely on me can anot? i'm not your mother alright!

tomorrow is the first day of final exam, so everyone is tensed! i'm also tensed! arrrrggghh...

i just feel like not talking to anyone and just stay alone for a day or two. not sure whether i'm having depression like the magazine says but, i think i really need a time-out. i just wanna hide myself from everybody and just do what i like. i really want a holiday RIGHT NOW!

today, when i went to Jusco to buy things, i saw RM50 in my wallet. i just feel like crying. not much money left in my pocket money account coz i overspent last week. i really feel like dropping my tears. but life must go on. i still have to eat. just no more entertainment or nice food this week. and i think i'm a bit sick too :( GOD! why every problem occur at the same time! :'''''''''(

A Visit To Kinderland

okay it's end of the semester and the whole school students are busy with their theses, exams, presentation and etc... i'm one of them too. yesterday, i went to this kindergarten named Kinderland near my college to take picture for an assignment that my groupmates and i have done. the kindergarten was nice, it has a big playground and many classrooms in it. i also went to the nursery. OMG! why the nursery is so different than the nursery i went when i was young?!

well, it looked just like normal side terrace house but when i went it, there's so many teachers and students were having their breaks. awwww so cute, they were eating Koko Krunch yum yum yum...

Koko Krunch, so yummy! i gotta finish all of them and add another bowl!

so i went in and the teachers are so patient. and they hugs the students and play with them, and they even taught them some table manner too. i don't remember learning any of these in my nursery. i remember my teacher showered us with cold water and they never hug me also :( so sad. the kids are very shy, some of them. but they were very curious when i took out the camera and start taking pictures of them and the place. and when i ask them to sit with me, they felt shy at first, but after that they came right away and sit on my lap and didn't want to leave anymore. hahaha. so cute. what makes me happy the most is that one of the kids said "Jie Jie, i like you". my heart just melted ;) and some also my favorite too even though they are quite. i also remember there's on which was so shy that her head goes lower and lower till she looked at the ground when i talked to her hahaha. but she's fine after that.

i like her the most. so cute. and she's quiet!

the girl that looked down when she's shy, and the new boy that came but sit aside coz he felt alone. he's curious though! guy's ego hahahaha!

awww seeing them and playing with the small kids make me feel like a mommy. but, i wanna be young like them too! and, nursery that i used to go, Y U NO FUN LIKE KINDERLAND? isssshhh!! after i took all the pictures i needed, i left, and before that i asked them to give me hugs and all swarmed towards me and hug me, so lovely~ and the even stick their faces to the glass door and said bye bye... cute little kids, they made my day ;)

Good Bye!