2013 Resolution

So, since i couldn't finish fulfilling all the resolution or goals i set last year, this year i'm going to set less, and they focus more on being a better me, and also a person who will still be happy without pleasing others. why i said that? i realized i have been pleasing others a lot all these years and i don't even know what i want after crying and quarreling and hating others for treating me badly. i'm very jealous that others could live so happily, but why not me?? searching answers everywhere everyday and from the examples i get around me, i know i didn't treat myself enough. so, it's time to love myself, put my needs to priority, and get to know myself more!

in 2013, i want to...

1. Find my passion and talent

2. Stay focus

3. Control anger and emotions

4. Learn how to sing properly (i really love singing, keeps me high!)

5. Watch sunrise at the beach

6. Read more self-help materials

7. Save money and do some investments

8. Do what I love, and don't do what i don't love

9. Stay classy and sassy

10. Act like a lady, think like a man

11. Talk less, listen more

12. When people walk away from you, let them go

13. Be happy, dance more!

not going to simply get anything for myself anymore and i think it's good to improve myself everyday. how had your first day of 2012 been? i hope it's a good year to you! gotta go sleep now as i still need to continue clearing old things. yes yes THROW ALL THE OLD THINGS and let the new ones in! :) Good night!

xoxo

Last Day of 2012

It's the last day of year 2012, and we didn't die yay!! Thank god for letting me continuing my life. So, last year i made a new year resolution for year 2012 and it goes like this.

this year, i wish to...
#1  Think less
#2  Get a job that pays a good amount (in the process weee!)
#3  Be confident!
#4  Be who I want to be not others want me to be
#5  Travel
#6  Find myself (i'm alwiz confused)
#7  Watching every episode of How I Met Your Mother
#8  Accept my insecurities
#9  Be a better person to the people around me (be less hot-tempered)
#10 Become less shy
#11 Redecorate my room
#12 Appreciate the little things
#13 Get back together with my true love
#14 Get an Iphone Get a Note 2 already
#15 Get a little bit taller (imma shorty just so you know)
#16 Watch the sunrise at the beach
#17 Learn a Nicki Minaj song
#18 Buy a pair of gorgeous heels
#19 Learn how to play the guitar
#20 Read more
#21 Find someone who will treat me right, get rid of those who treat me wrong
#22 Be happy
#23 Road Trip with friends
#24 Start saving money
#25 Go on camping with friends
#26 Learn another language (Korean,maybe?)
#27 Be strong!
#28 Get my first Nike shoes
#29 Adopt sugar glider
#30 Learn how to sing properly
#31 Spend more time with family
#32 Play in the rain
#33 Go on a trip with WOPPY

I've only done half of the resolutions i made last year. hmm... maybe i was too greedy? but i'm still happy that half of it achieved! especially those things that i get for myself unexpectedly. heheh... maybe i should start working on 2013 RESOLUTION and make sure the items are more achievable.

how have you guys been doing lately? ready to party tonight to embrace 2013 with joy?? haha.. i wish you all the best for the new year and most important, BE HAPPY!

xoxo

Turning 21...

it's been raining every day lately, every evening around 4pm, with thunder and lightnings...
i don't like lightnings and thunders, they made me scared. i don't like it to rain every day either, it makes the weather cool but sticky, and my mood turns to be as gloomy as the dark sky...

i'm turning 21 in two days... wow... i should feel happy, but for real, i don't feel so...
am i weird? i don't know...
21... a very important number. so in Chinese family, usually we'll receive a gold key pendant as a symbol of FREEDOM. so after you get the key, you should have the freedom and you can take control and make decision in your life. i'm not sure whether mom is going to give me gold key, but that doesn't matter, coz i don't really wear accessories... and i think i had enough freedom from her for now...
21... it's the beginning of adulthood. what i mean by that is that i'm no longer a teenager, i can start voting, if i conduct a crime i'll be put into jail, not rehab center... and all sorts of things will change like people will expect you to act like an adult, behave like an adult... oh ya not to forget about credit cards... salespersons start swarming towards you coz you're finally able to be one of their customer! and bills, responsibilities.... etc...

well, i don't know why i'm feeling moody. somehow, i feel like it's a changing point from what i used to be and what i want to be... i wanna be a better person after this of course! have been training for it already... i told my friend that my birthday is coming soon, so excited while talking about it but i just feel that something is missing, and i don't know what is it...

that day is a Thursday, people will be busy with classes, so am i... some of my friends (Fifi and Lily) already gave me my birthday presents as they have left to their hometown for good, i wanna thank them so much! the older i grow, the less i care about the presents actually, as long as you have the heart. but i'll still keep it :) oh yah, that's a Thursday, middle of the semester, when everyone is busy. haha what a good day! -,- i wish i could celebrate this special day with my family but they're not going to be here on that day... my old schoolmates WOPPY, none of them will be here too... and also AWEPIC... some are busy with work, some are too far away, and some even sulk like a kid until today... i would rather change all my presents with their presence, to see me blowing my candles, to watch me grow up...
......it just won't happen, i know... and i'm crying right now knowing that i couldn't get my biggest wish fulfilled. :'(

so dear god, if you can hear me... i just wish that day will be a happy day for me, even though those people can't be here with me on Thursday... it shouldn't be a sad day after all, it's my 21st birthday...

Updated wishes. Come on you can do it!

updated wishes! 
it's August now, let's see what i've done.
#1  Think less  I DID IT!!
#2  Get a job that pays a good amount (in the process weee!)
#3  Be confident!
#4  Be who I want to be not others want me to be
#5  Travel
#6  Find myself (i'm alwiz confused)
#7  Watching every episode of How I Met Your Mother
#8  Accept my insecurities I DID IT!!
#9  Be a better person to the people around me (be less hot-tempered)
#10 Become less shy
#11 Redecorate my room DONE! AND I'M HAPPY WITH IT!
#12 Appreciate the little things
#13 Get back together with my true love  OUTDO myself
#14 Get an Iphone
#15 Get a little bit taller (imma shorty just so you know)
#16 Watch the sunrise at the beach
#17 Learn a Nicki Minaj song
#18 Buy a pair of gorgeous heels
#19 Learn how to play the guitar ukelele for now ;)
#20 Read more
#21 Find someone who will treat me right, get rid of those who treat me wrong
#22 Be happy
#23 Road Trip with friends
#24 Start saving money
#25 Go on camping with friends
#26 Learn another language (Korean,maybe?)
#27 Be strong!
#28 Get my first Nike shoes NIKE AIR! FROM JOHOR PREMIUM OUTLET 
#29 Adopt sugar glider I DON'T WANT IT ANYMORE.
#30 Learn how to sing properly
#31 Spend more time with family
#32 Play in the rain  DONE, AND IT MAKES ME SICK THE NEXT DAY :(
#33 Go on a trip with WOPPY

gonna change some of them coz i have different insight of different goals now. :)

2012 Wishes updated!

it's the fourth month of 2012, hmm maybe i should see what i have done until today. so here's the updated wishes!
this year, i wish to...
#1  Think less
#2  Get a job that pays a good amount (in the process weee!)
#3  Be confident!
#4  Be who I want to be not others want me to be
#5  Travel
#6  Find myself (i'm alwiz confused)
#7  Watching every episode of How I Met Your Mother
#8  Accept my insecurities
#9  Be a better person to the people around me (be less hot-tempered)
#10 Become less shy
#11 Redecorate my room DONE! AND I'M HAPPY WITH IT!
#12 Appreciate the little things
#13 Get back together with my true love
#14 Get an Iphone
#15 Get a little bit taller (imma shorty just so you know)
#16 Watch the sunrise at the beach
#17 Learn a Nicki Minaj song
#18 Buy a pair of gorgeous heels
#19 Learn how to play the guitar ukelele for now ;)
#20 Read more
#21 Find someone who will treat me right, get rid of those who treat me wrong
#22 Be happy
#23 Road Trip with friends
#24 Start saving money
#25 Go on camping with friends
#26 Learn another language (Korean,maybe?)
#27 Be strong!
#28 Get my first Nike shoes
#29 Adopt sugar glider
#30 Learn how to sing properly
#31 Spend more time with family
#32 Play in the rain  DONE, AND IT MAKES ME SICK THE NEXT DAY :(
#33 Go on a trip with WOPPY


haaa still a lot to be done, but some are already in the process. i hope i could cross out all by the end of the year!

33 wishes of year 2012

wow, wishes do come true huh? I LIKE IT! happy new year to everyone! hope you have a good kickstart of 2012 like me, at least for now :) i have 2 cats at home, and they're gone when my family were off for holiday for a week. the stray dogs invaded my house and i can't find my cats for weeks. i wished for them to come back, miss them so much, and i were afraid that they're eaten by the dogs or the construction workers nearby. but no worries, 1 of the cats is back home today! where's your girlfriend kitty? she found a new boyfriend already? hahaha. just joking. oh ya, and i wished to get some jobs to start earning more money, and guess what, a friend just called and offer me a job yay!!! i'm so happy that what i wished become true, thank god! so, it's new year, everyone has their new year resolution, so do i...

this year, i wish to...
#1  Think less
#2  Get a job that pays a good amount (in the process weee!)
#3  Be confident!
#4  Be who I want to be not others want me to be
#5  Travel
#6  Find myself (i'm alwiz confused)
#7  Watching every episode of How I Met Your Mother
#8  Accept my insecurities
#9  Be a better person to the people around me (be less hot-tempered)
#10 Become less shy
#11 Redecorate my room
#12 Appreciate the little things
#13 Get back together with my true love
#14 Get an Iphone
#15 Get a little bit taller (imma shorty just so you know)
#16 Watch the sunrise at the beach
#17 Learn a Nicki Minaj song
#18 Buy a pair of gorgeous heels
#19 Learn how to play the guitar
#20 Read more
#21 Find someone who will treat me right, get rid of those who treat me wrong
#22 Be happy
#23 Road Trip with friends
#24 Start saving money
#25 Go on camping with friends
#26 Learn another language (Korean,maybe?)
#27 Be strong!
#28 Get my first Nike shoes
#29 Adopt sugar glider
#30 Learn how to sing properly
#31 Spend more time with family
#32 Play in the rain
#33 Go on a trip with WOPPY

*some of the ideas are taken from Fashion is My Drug. thank you for inspiring me! haaa these are my wishes for now. hopefully it is achieved by the end of this year. i wish, pray hard! enjoy your new year everyone!