2013 Resolution

So, since i couldn't finish fulfilling all the resolution or goals i set last year, this year i'm going to set less, and they focus more on being a better me, and also a person who will still be happy without pleasing others. why i said that? i realized i have been pleasing others a lot all these years and i don't even know what i want after crying and quarreling and hating others for treating me badly. i'm very jealous that others could live so happily, but why not me?? searching answers everywhere everyday and from the examples i get around me, i know i didn't treat myself enough. so, it's time to love myself, put my needs to priority, and get to know myself more!

in 2013, i want to...

1. Find my passion and talent

2. Stay focus

3. Control anger and emotions

4. Learn how to sing properly (i really love singing, keeps me high!)

5. Watch sunrise at the beach

6. Read more self-help materials

7. Save money and do some investments

8. Do what I love, and don't do what i don't love

9. Stay classy and sassy

10. Act like a lady, think like a man

11. Talk less, listen more

12. When people walk away from you, let them go

13. Be happy, dance more!

not going to simply get anything for myself anymore and i think it's good to improve myself everyday. how had your first day of 2012 been? i hope it's a good year to you! gotta go sleep now as i still need to continue clearing old things. yes yes THROW ALL THE OLD THINGS and let the new ones in! :) Good night!

xoxo

You will be missed... Ma Ma

i woke up around 11am today... the day was a bit cloudy.
i was a bit busy sending emails to my lecturer, and i received a call from my brother.
it was 2.16 pm, and i was thinking why my brother call me at that time.
brother said dad called him just now. it was about my ma-ma (babysitter), she passed away...
few days ago mom did told me about her illness. both her kidneys were already failed to function and her legs were swelling. so when i go back to Kuantan during sem break she'll bring me to meet ma-ma again.
i thought she could wait a little bit longer until i go back. now that ma-ma left, i feel a bit sad, as i haven't seen her for the last time. dad said she'll be buried in Kelantan, so i hope i could go and pay respect when i visit Kelantan.

my ma-ma took care of me since i was very little, two years old i guess. we had a lot of fun and one of the strongest memory i had with her was this funny scene. she asked me and my younger brother to drink and do the gulp sound. she demonstrated it to us. i also remember my brother used to shit in his pants, but she didn't scold us, instead she talked to us nicely. she's a really nice woman, i don't remember any time that she got angry actually... such a sweet lady.

This is my ma-ma and the happy me :D

after ma-ma stop taking care of us and went back to Kelantan, i haven't seen her for a long long time. i couldn't get used to going kindergarten and i cried every morning. she just made me feel so safe, and fun staying home. my mom and ma-ma's daughters said i was the apple of her eyes as she didn't have any granddaughter yet that time. she sayang me so much! all these pictures when i was young were taken from her album that she kept it with her all the time.

mom told me that ma-ma was a bit sick during this year's CNY, and all of us went to visit her at ma-ma's daughter house. she was so happy and keep laughing non stop. and she brought out all the old pictures and joke about them (we used to be very naughty, and my bro was really fat) haha...

Ma-ma's little granddaughter has grown up!

this doll was made specially for me by ma-ma. i'm a blissful kid ain't i? the most precious gift from a person who doesn't have any bloodline with me. :)

ma-ma, i hope you're living in peace in heaven. and i will really miss you. thanks for taking care of me like my own grandmother :') I Love You!

Better Together

i was bored, so i saw many people tweeting about this girl named Neelofa... don't really know who is she so i checked it on google. i went to her website, and i heard this song! it's a really nice song from Jack Johnson, the singer for Good People... haa this just made my day sweeter, as i already felt so happy that my favorite badminton player Dato' Lee Chong Wei is married! he looked so handsome and his wife Wong Mew Choo too, prettyyyyyyy! wish i am at their wedding now! HAPPY MARRIAGE LCW and WMC! 

祝你们百年好合，白头谐老！

let's listen to this song until we sleep tonight! :)

"Better Together"
There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart, 
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmmm, It's always better when we're together
Yeah we'll look at the stars and we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight,
But I know that theyll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things
for tomorrow night you see
that theyll be gone too,
too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
With only two,
Just me and you,
Not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree, now,

Yeah It's always better when we're together
Mmmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

mmmmmmm

I believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
There is no, no song I could sing
and there is no combination of words I could say
but I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together

How To Be So "High" Like Me?

okay first of all, when i talk to you guys happily and compliment you, i mean it.
i'm not drunk, maybe sometimes i am, so please don't ask me whether i am drunk anot when i say good words. APPRECIATE IT please... coz you'll never get those words anymore when i'm really in bad mood. hahaha

so, how to be so "high" and happy? (at least for some period), coz there's no such thing like forever happiness lah as you know.

1. don't take things too seriously. (lecturers, friends, family, roommates, whoever can make you angry, but you don't have to take things too seriously, coz they'll die eventually, sounds so bad, but it's true!)

2. don't angry for too long. (if it's not going to change things, make sure you don't angry for too long coz it will make you feel really sick, like i used to. no appetite, no mood, bla bla bla, you don't want that.)

3. watch SPORTS and be supportive! (this is a must, for me. where else can you shout like a mad person and be so aggressive except watching sports, especially live one! it feels so good cheering for your fav sportsmen or your fav team, trust me)

Hockey

Kaka from Football

Lee Chong Wei from Badminton

4. eat and shit. (eating good and nice food makes me feel good! and the even better feeling is when you pass out yesterday's food and accept new food again. wow, that's why chefs exist!)

5. cuddle in your blanket everyday. (like a teddy bear hugging you)

6. imagine you're in love. ( yah this sounds a bit crazy bit eventually you will really feel the love there, somewhere there hehehhe)

7. sleep well. (like a dead fish and wake up excitingly)

8. smile and laugh to whatever you think it's happy and funny. :)


9. don't watch too much of sad dramas. it will affect your emotion.

10. meet more people, more old friends, and do things you like. (like the duty i just went. it feels so good knowing i don't have to just study as a student)

ok i guess that's all. i hope this works for you too... :) (i'm sober)

Jason Mraz Concert 19 June 2012

few days ago, i just went to Jason Mraz' concert, and i felt sooooooo excited about it. it's because this is the first time i bought a ticket for myself to watch an internationally well known singer's concert!

at the reception

i had been so excited and i even went to Bangsar just to change the ticket earlier. but after that, i was lucky enough to get 2 VVIP tickets from my aunt so i sold off my free seating tickets to my friends. so proud to be so near to the stage. he's right there, just less than 10 meters in front of me :)

yay i got my VVIP tickets with me :D

i went there early, with my brother, Adeline, and her cousin. i bought his latest album for my youngest brother, coz he said he couldn't come to the concert as he's in Kuantan. so after the dinner by the road side, we all went in to the stadium (Stadium Merdeka).

not really many people came, probably because of low publicity. but because of that, everyone had a comfortable seat. at least the cheapest ticket won't have to sit too far from the stage now. it started with the opening song by Awi Rafael, a local singer-songwriter. and then Jason's turn was around 8.30pm. when he and his crews were preparing the stage, all fans were already shouting and screaming his name (including me hehehe). WOW!

so he started with the first song - Everything is Sound. it was lively. i saw many couples there, middle-age, and i was thinking how good is it if i also have a boyfriend to come with me that time. haha. and then, i'm not sure whether at the 2nd or 3rd song, he said something. and everyone start swarming to the front, more and more. so not many people is in their seats anymore. Jason started teaching us some moves, like dancing to the song! it's like a relaxation move, really interesting, and made me enjoy the show more!

Jason was asking all of us to dance with him

but suddenly, the guards came, and make us go back to our seats. it's really sad coz we were all there to enjoy the concert in front of the stage. after the guards left, a bunch of fans swarmed to the front again, followed by all of us. and it lasted till the end of show. shouting and dancing while he's singing is really really cool! i like the feeling. it's like you're at a mini lounge in an island you can do whatever you want. but what makes me funny was a pair of old couple, not really old, probably around 50 sitting there feeling bored. my goodness, everyone was like falling in love and they're giving the poker face =,=. hahaha. wasted the ticket la!

his crew

Jason was really good when he performed live, and i like it more during live than the album itself. more soulful, something i would like to describe as. feel like i'm in love with the moment, i really feel like crying that time coz i was so touched! overall i really enjoyed the concert and i'm so blessed to hear him singing live!!!! i hope he will be performing in Msia again next year!

33 wishes of year 2012

wow, wishes do come true huh? I LIKE IT! happy new year to everyone! hope you have a good kickstart of 2012 like me, at least for now :) i have 2 cats at home, and they're gone when my family were off for holiday for a week. the stray dogs invaded my house and i can't find my cats for weeks. i wished for them to come back, miss them so much, and i were afraid that they're eaten by the dogs or the construction workers nearby. but no worries, 1 of the cats is back home today! where's your girlfriend kitty? she found a new boyfriend already? hahaha. just joking. oh ya, and i wished to get some jobs to start earning more money, and guess what, a friend just called and offer me a job yay!!! i'm so happy that what i wished become true, thank god! so, it's new year, everyone has their new year resolution, so do i...

this year, i wish to...
#1  Think less
#2  Get a job that pays a good amount (in the process weee!)
#3  Be confident!
#4  Be who I want to be not others want me to be
#5  Travel
#6  Find myself (i'm alwiz confused)
#7  Watching every episode of How I Met Your Mother
#8  Accept my insecurities
#9  Be a better person to the people around me (be less hot-tempered)
#10 Become less shy
#11 Redecorate my room
#12 Appreciate the little things
#13 Get back together with my true love
#14 Get an Iphone
#15 Get a little bit taller (imma shorty just so you know)
#16 Watch the sunrise at the beach
#17 Learn a Nicki Minaj song
#18 Buy a pair of gorgeous heels
#19 Learn how to play the guitar
#20 Read more
#21 Find someone who will treat me right, get rid of those who treat me wrong
#22 Be happy
#23 Road Trip with friends
#24 Start saving money
#25 Go on camping with friends
#26 Learn another language (Korean,maybe?)
#27 Be strong!
#28 Get my first Nike shoes
#29 Adopt sugar glider
#30 Learn how to sing properly
#31 Spend more time with family
#32 Play in the rain
#33 Go on a trip with WOPPY

*some of the ideas are taken from Fashion is My Drug. thank you for inspiring me! haaa these are my wishes for now. hopefully it is achieved by the end of this year. i wish, pray hard! enjoy your new year everyone!

Last Day of 2011

let me count, it is 5 hours to midnight, and today is the last day of year 2011... wow that is really fast. i feel like everything just happened yesterday. okay, so it is time for new year again! new wishes, new goals, and new person, maybe? hehe.. i think i have grew up a lot in this 1 year, and of course i have learnt a lot by living alone too.. still single brrrr.... to those that i had treated them badly this year without reason, i'm sorry for my wrongdoing. i hope you'll forgive me :) and to those that i knew this year, welcome to my world. to those that have been my friends from last time, thank you for still be my lovely friends, love you people! to those that trying to do bad for me, someday you'll get your karma, no worries. hmm, from time to time, i'll sound a bit snobbish, or even annoying, so sorry for that. and sometimes, i get too excited or too moody, thank you for sharing those times with me. err, what else to say? i think that's all for this post, here's a little new year's eve song, a very sweet one, enjoy!! oh ya, and enjoy your 2012 too!! =)

oh ya and to those who want to propose to their partners, maybe this video will help you? just saw it few days ago, it is so sweeeeeeet!